Life Beyond The Minimum Safe Distance

2005-06-04T01:52:00.000-04:00

"far"i wanna get out of herejust drive awaysend myself far where no one can find mei want to escapejust run awayget lost in a world that's unknown to meif i never find my way back, i don't think i'll mindi want to leave this placejust get awayfind somewhere else where i can bei want to make my moveand just slip awayunder the radar where no one can seeif i never find my way back, i don't think

2005-02-19T10:53:00.000-05:00

"return address not found"suffocate me tonighti don't want to breatheif i can't speak what's on my minda little pain it's all i need to feel alivethough i'll always feel this death insideever since i saw you dieyou went away for goodand i can't go back to loving you anymorei could cry and mournor i could move onbut i think the latter is an option goneso drown me tonighti don't want to breatheif i

2005-01-29T02:38:00.000-05:00

so you're all just part of my dream and i'm just lost in negativity but what's the point to only reach if i know i'll never have you a part of me i'll just walk alone and sit alone and think alone tonight while romance is alive in other peoples lives i'll just sit around and think aloud on the ground tonight while love somewhere else has taken flight so this is all just a fantasy and i'll never

2005-01-05T23:08:00.000-05:00

"in the back of your mind" everything is already a blur either it all moves too fast or too slow and i'm finding things i'd rather avoid i'm missing out on everything i want to know what direction am i headed in? regardless i'm walking with a blindfold might as well lead me off a cliff because i'll follow anywhere i'm told everything is second guess i can't be too sure of anything and i'm

2005-01-05T22:53:00.000-05:00

"guilty by association" people dropping into the fire for a cause no one's sure exists everyone against each other i thought we were more than this human, we all share that name or at least i thought we should human, we are all the same or at least i thought we were we're all equal in definition i was not made any different we're all in our own image if you would just open your eyes human, we

2005-01-04T19:08:00.000-05:00

i feel useless, i feel worthless just a body on the earth without a purpose i need direction, i need feeling just a body full of wounds with no way of healing today i woke up and realized why i was dreaming i came to the conclusion that i have no reason for anything i never knew before what was killing me inside but i think i figured it out this time i can't find a point to why i'm here and i'm

2004-12-31T17:23:00.000-05:00

"Walk Away" (title subject to change) - music by Jim Dematt and Jimmy Weber, lyrics by Jimmy Weber It’s just like you to take it all away. Forget everything we had and all my pain. Where did we run astray? Turned our hearts to black and grey. Take it all away. [Chorus] Seems my back, you went around. Pulling us farther down. I

2004-12-18T01:11:00.000-05:00

"set sail for sorrow" heavy on the hands i cant lift myself above the water no one understands but they're all okay and can't be bothered well i don't know how much longer i can last i'm losing energy and sinking fast there's got to be some sort of purpose there's got to be a way to reach the surface heavy are the lands we can't fit ourselves into a notion where we all understand we push our own

2004-12-15T01:08:00.000-05:00

"losing in an undefeated season" what if i never had anything at all i went through life not knowing a soul i never had to feel loss sometimes i wish that's how it was if only the world were more defined and never did the stars not align if only life was more alive and never did we lose, but only find sometimes i wish i didn't have a thing i grew up without having anything to leave i never had

2004-12-13T14:11:00.000-05:00

"thanks for nothing" everyone just pretends to like me in this life you gave to me so graciously i bow out i give up i quit because there are just somethings we're just not fit for i tried to be happy i really did but it never worked out and i never gave in until now i'm fucking dying here and you still won't come to my call i'm losing breath and you still don't care at all and you wonder why

2004-12-08T11:27:00.000-05:00

"derailing train of thought" this is everything i went against and this is everything i am if i wasn't so ashamed i'd be myself again why can't i come to terms and live without denial it seems there's always this frown hidden beneath my smile i don't know how much more of this i could possibly take this is everything i went against this is everything that's fake realization is something that i

2004-12-05T15:31:00.000-05:00

"alone on christmas eve" i want to be a martyr i want to have a cause i want to have a daughter tell her there's no santa clause i want the world to wake up i want to bring back hope i want the world to shape up from the oceans to the slopes i want to get to the point i don't want to step through shit i want to break at the joints and just let go of this i want to find a purpose i want to

2004-12-05T15:29:00.000-05:00

"taking it all upon my shoulders (i feel my knees give out)" i'll be your secret lullaby for when you cry yourself to sleep for the times that no one sees i'll be your undercover alibi for when there's something that you need you know you can count on me i'm a stagehand behind the scenes i'll never make the credits with you up on the screen i'm your deepest dark secret something you'll always

2004-11-18T14:27:00.000-05:00

"direction" it's jumping out of me i now know what i couldn't see holy shit, i can't believe this i finally found what i'm looking for i think i know now the direction i need if you'd like i can help you, i'll lead i'll carry you if you get too low because i know how that feels, i know it just takes some time, thats it you may not believe a word of this but it's all true and i've found that

2004-11-16T18:14:00.000-05:00

"alone in the crowd" what's the price to pay for thinking differently it costs me everything and i can't afford it anymore i'm having seconds thoughts of all that i've been taught i want to break away and run because i can't take it anymore i always thought we should be ourselves i always thought we should believe what we want i guess standards aren't so standard anymore and i guess i should

2004-11-16T01:20:00.000-05:00

"headache" god damn this feels like eternity locked up in my room i long for certainty that i know i'm going to get out of this place alive well maybe i'm just paranoid always on the look for things to avoid i hope to god i'm going to get out this place alive you're giving me a headache as you smash my head against the wall i think i'm beginning too break i don't think i'll make it out at all

2004-11-12T01:55:00.000-05:00

"through the eyes of a child" why am i so selfish why am i so paranoid why am i always concentrating on the negative things the things i should avoid why am i always tired why am i always staring at the ground why am i always wondering where i'm going to end up next when i should take a look at where im at now it will never be like this again the wonderous eyes go blind in me i'll never see the

2004-11-09T17:45:00.000-05:00

"winter solstice" it gets dark around here early and where am i gonna end up tonight the stars can never lead me home they can't lead me anywhere without being alone i thought maybe this time it wouldn't be so bad but the cold wind is running up and down my back i feel i may never find my way and if i could get out of here i would i would run straight to you i feel the sun burning behind the

2004-11-08T22:17:00.000-05:00

"5 years and no reply" remember when friendship meant something after years of being together without a fight youd think itd be something to hold onto something to remember, well i thought you might if you really don't care about this then just come out and say whats on your mind if you really don't care about me then i'll just walk away and leave it all behind like you after all the fun and

2004-11-01T22:49:00.000-05:00

"misfiring synapses" the words dont come as easily tonight though i wish i could say what i wanted i need to clear my head and the only way is to forget, to forget you i can't seem to get my arms around something to hold onto so i don't hit the ground you know i've never been so lost that i can't find my way home but there's a first time for everything i suppose if the world were to end right

2004-10-23T02:26:00.000-04:00

"looking up to the heavens (i feel my neck break)" everythings just a dream all make believe i'll make believe that you weren't with me everythings just a joke all make a toast i'll make a toast to serendipity i can't believe that you're with me when i can't see through this storm the clouds too dark for me to spark any kind of shining light or hope everythings just a waste all breathe the

2004-10-16T03:54:00.000-04:00

"dividing love with a gun" the scene is set on a midnight sky and after this, i wouldn't need to die i've already seen heaven after going through hell if things could last forever than we might as well don't you worry sweetie i'll watch over you now i'll carry this wound so you can stay on the ground it will be hard at first, just like it was for me feeling the pain is harder when it hits so

2004-10-12T19:49:00.000-04:00

this is what you call respect i call this my fucking fist pen clenched i'll defeat you lyrically thats the price to pay for tyranny sorry to say but you're done your rule of bullshit and fuck this and fuck you too that's the price to pay it's a dark sillhouette above your bed assasination with a pen it's a piece of mind stuck in your head assasination with a pen i've never been so fucking

2004-10-11T04:21:00.000-04:00

the cool dead leaves are floating in the air with the scent of autumn hanging in dispair you know, i never really liked this time of year memories and flashbacks of a time when i cared well i dont anymore because you took it all away and i choke anymore because you took this all away from me running through the leaves with the wind in my face it's getting harder everyday to hold onto this place

2004-09-24T21:43:00.000-04:00

the clouds have moved aside the rain has run dry the sky has cleared and there you stand in the sunlight making my world brighter is nothing to you such a minimal doing for such a beauty making my worries lighter is something from you i will always hold in my debt the river runs smooth the air is easy to breathe grass now covers the dirt as you stand in front of me making my world brighter is

2004-09-23T23:25:00.000-04:00

"Epitaph" see you on the ground next to your grave you strangled yourself in your own rage now i'm down on my knees next in line for your disease save me save me you were always such a trend and i can't pretend that i don't miss you anymore and i've settled in my remorse see you on the ground next to my grave under the earth i beg for my escape save me save me i can't breathe with you here

2004-09-22T16:28:00.000-04:00

this song isn't personal, i just wrote it to write. kinda like putting myself into a story. enjoy. "Self-Infliction With a Side of Denial" its all about feeling sorry for myself and not having the guts because you ripped them out i cant stand up for myself or just get over this take me away lead me by the wrist im over you being over me look down from your pedestal and i'll look up to the sky

2004-09-21T23:08:00.000-04:00

"A Cartographer Lost" its been a long time since ive seen your face its been a long time since ive seen anything uplifting i just want to know where im going before i get even more lost how far is it to your heart ive been counting the stars and comparing them to how many times youve left me behind, im falling behind i just need to know where im headed before i get even more lost how far is

2004-09-12T23:32:00.000-04:00

and this is where im left for dead throw your worries my way and pump me full of lead leave me in my room lying on the floor i think it's safe to say you don't care anymore how come i always have to help you? and how come you can always turn from me? it's like picking up where you left off and getting all of your grief i know back home i won't feel this alone and i know that this is what i have

2004-09-08T16:54:00.000-04:00

"Sweet Lies" you live in fear you live in a fantasy you live inside everything that i hate in me i never knew it but now i realize you're nothing special, you're nothing special you have eyes but your blind to the truth you have time but you don't give it much use i cant wait on you forever to realize. you're nothing special, you're nothing special your lies never tasted so bittersweet and i

2004-09-06T15:28:00.000-04:00

well it's been awhile. i may get back into this blogging thing but i'm pretty sure no one reads it haha. if i can find the time though i think i may try and make my own webpage so i can put up some music and things for everyone. as most of you know i'm in canada now attending the ontario institute of audio recording technology. it's pretty cool up here and if anyone ever wants to come up and

2004-07-23T13:33:00.000-04:00

- no title to this one yet, but it does have music so walk away and i will say it again who will defend you when you're all out of friends so break away and i will pretend to care i've tried to fix you but you're broken beyond repair stubbornness is your trade when your in the market of your past be careful not to break your neck when you look away so fast cause all i see from you

2004-07-14T15:08:00.000-04:00

"The Viewing For Our Broken Hearts" we're falling into graves that we ourselves have made but we didn't leave enough dirt to cover us up and soon everyone will know that we dig our own holes and everyone will see this self-made tragedy as you fight against gravity as you fight against everything i'll be watching i'll be stopping by with flowers for your pride but you didn't leave enough dirt to

2004-06-22T01:16:00.000-04:00

"The Best Years Of Your Life" for everything we are for all of the things we'll be for the broken and the coward don't give up with me for the mute with all those words on the tip of his tongue for all he's about to say with a loaded gun take a walk outside and take a deep breath look towards the sky and not towards regret stop and think and clear your head open your mind not theirs instead so

2004-06-04T17:25:00.000-04:00

"Graduation Day at Hell U." all of these nights i remember just seem to of broken me both our lives i've wondered why they can't be the same, both together in synchronicity well all this is over it's behind me and i won't ever act this way again and i will never dream of what could have been your face once stole my mind (and you owned my heart) but i can see through you (guess i could all the

2004-04-23T22:32:00.000-04:00

the story for this one is too long to explain. "Uninvited" everything about you i never really cared for and everything we talk about is just bullshit i don't really know why i ever thought of this as something with potential, or something at all this place has gotten so dirty with the shit in our mouths i need to get away, i need to drown myself for you, for something i'll forget out of all

2004-04-13T22:39:00.001-04:00

"The Greatest Escape" have you ever thought of running away from here i'm getting closer every second you can come with me, we'll make the greatest escape forget all this, and live again hello, hello can you even hear me? can you break away and just come with me everything has fallen how do you take away all my pain running or crawling i'll get to you have you ever dreamed of something more

2004-04-12T14:02:00.000-04:00

i stole the title to this one from another song i wrote, but i like this better than the last, so there you have it bitches: "Food, Gas, Hell...Next Exit" this is the last of anything i said before i'm taking it upon myself to forget you and all those dreams turned into nightmares and i've finally found that out does any of this even get you going will any of this ever get you to leave i'm

2004-03-14T23:12:00.000-05:00

"Helpless" when i think about it now, i don't know when i breathe these words, i choke and everything is out of my control all i have is to sit here and watch you go it's funny how things work out and i wonder now if i didn't have to leave would you still have ended up this way and if i didn't have to breathe, i'd give you all the air you would need to live again when i look back now, i

2004-02-21T03:10:00.000-05:00

Rooftop Lullabies I knew that nothing would come of this i had a feeling that i wish i didn't miss because now the only thing all of this shows is how i don't have you now i've fallen apart and took up a hobby cleaning out these wounds you left me but they will never heal, i just want to look good in my casket, would you come to see me? why do i even ask this.... i just need to breathe exhale

2004-02-15T02:13:00.000-05:00

havent been updating lately, a few reasons: lazy, not enough material i feel like sharing haha, and busy with school, etc. but never fear...here is a new little poem thing no title yet theres nothing left to say its 2 am and sleep is too far away won't someone just ease me please im restless and wreckless and tired of these days so, we talked for awhile and then you left i'm still here

2004-02-01T15:59:00.000-05:00

its been awhile.. "Frozen Memories" the sidewalks are covered with snow and almost as cold as you are to me and i can't breathe, i just gasp with wild eyes and try to believe that what you're saying to me is something that can make me happy. something that can make me feel after these long winters it's hard to get back up in spring. it's hard to get back up when you're still falling. i'm still

2004-01-17T14:25:00.000-05:00

wrote this last night. i might add on to it later, but i am pretty lazy so.. what could've become of this? thanks for never giving the chance. and there's never enough evidence to prove that you're heartless. broken down and no way to fix, it's time to leave and distance is the only thing we'll ever gain. it's the only thing you'll ever bring. the dark sky is nothing compared to your heart and i

2004-01-15T17:49:00.000-05:00

heffner was kind enough to upload two newly recorded songs of mine on his website: 'nameless' and 'the autumn of 03'. so check that out. music

2004-01-14T16:58:00.000-05:00

i recorded 'the autumn of 03' and it should be up on heffner's webpage within the next few days, so keep an eye out for that. if you didn't read it before, the lyrics to this newly recorded song are this: the autumn of 03 feel like i wanna go. feel like theres nowhere. feel like i know you're just pretending to care. it took me so long to realize this was wrong. it took me so long to realize

2004-01-11T01:40:00.000-05:00

"dishonesty is my virtue" i'm playing down for you everything's okay at least on the surface i'm all out for you everything's a waste at least i'm honest nothing new can take it's place and nothing here can erase the face you trace back to me that hides what's inside that you'll never see i'm falling down for you everything will stay to rest on the surface i'm faking this for you everything's

2004-01-10T23:45:00.000-05:00

"Food, Gas, Hell...Next Exit" i'm just what you want me to be i'm just nothing i'm just what you want me to see lost something that was here before and you never were so why do i seemed surprise that there's nothing when i look into your eyes? i'm just another searching soul in just another lonely world and i'm just another face you won't remember i'm just another broken heart in just another

2004-01-10T01:51:00.000-05:00

"The Long Drive To Nowhere" ive never been so cold in my life my car could barely start, and neither could i everything has a way of finding itself again if ever lost, but now im sinking in and i wanna know, will everything flash before my eyes? will i even remember anything at all? because right now, you're all that comes to mind and i'm tired of these thoughts. i wanna forget these last

2004-01-06T00:50:00.000-05:00

been awhile since i updated this "Dark Skies" up above there are no more stars they all burnt up years ago and the moon is just like me stays up all night, so lonely time means nothing to me anymore it seems to have left me long before i could even tell you did and i wish i couldnt tell that this ever happened its dark outside just like this life i cant tell where im going and i wish i knew

2003-12-24T21:35:00.000-05:00

wrote this today....with music! oh yeah! i also put music to "Nameless" (look below) "Ephemeral Passing" maybe we'll find another way. waiting for another day just brings lost hope and baby, i know something makes me (die). well you and me were never this far, and i can see her. well you and me can never come apart, if we can't come together. maybe it will all be different. saving every

2003-12-19T20:28:00.000-05:00

back home and i like it...dunno about this astatic show though. hopefully it will work out. for now, enjoy: "Nameless" how dark can it get alone forever in my head my heart pounds keeping a beat to the sounds of my nightmares how vacant is it alone forever in all this im falling down keeping a rhythm to a sound consistency can you feel it running through your veins? stopping the world and all

2003-12-07T00:59:00.000-05:00

"Fading" summer fades with me and the reason i'm lying to myself i wish i never knew how everything is i wish i never knew any of this misdirection, here we go i'm leading myself off a cliff and regretting none of it so you can just say goodbye in a letter throw it in the box, wet with your tears of regret so we can just say goodbye forever throw this behind the locks, wet with my tears of

2003-12-06T01:03:00.000-05:00

great site: www.emotioneric.com "Sleeping In Absence" say it isnt you the moonlight cascading on the water glowing in the night waking up my dreams i wish i could hold you right now but you're so far away yeah you're so far away you know i never knew the way you would just break me down blowing in the wind shaking up my dreams i wish i could touch you right now but you're so far away yeah,

2003-12-01T14:21:00.000-05:00

saw neotaerik practiced... damn fine job. they should rock this hizouse. "Neglecting the Fine Print" hey there big star come down from your cloud don't you even fuckin think you'll get out of here somehow i've been dying you've been so proud look at me, look at yourself, who do you think is dying now i just wish that something in here was missing i just wish that that something was you i

2003-11-30T00:33:00.000-05:00

thanksgiving break, so haven't had time to postage, but here you are. "Lunacy" im blinded by the moonlight while tryin to find more stars to gaze at while im waitin for you im too tired to think and the sun will never come up if it acts at all like you do i'll be the moon and you be the sun and we'll take place during the day i'll go down and you stay up and when night comes and we pass i'll

2003-11-23T14:28:00.000-05:00

ok this paper is so damn boring! "Photo Album For The Broken Hearted" pictures say a thousand words i could write about yours forever is that a real smile? sometimes i wish i knew better i cant see this happening and its killing me slowly i hope its not happening with you knowingly but how could i be sure your picture doesnt say a word dont fade away the only memory i have of you today wont

2003-11-23T13:19:00.000-05:00

got bored while writing a 5 page paper...damn college. can't wait for thanksgiving. breaks = good. anyway, while i was bored i wrote this: "Disappear" i've got something here well at least i thought i did it must've disappeared along with all my decent thoughts of you because now all i can think of are the things you did to make me break and now all i'm on the brink of is nothing less than a

2003-11-21T02:19:00.000-05:00

the internet was down all yesterday. stupid temple. anyway, i was gonna post this, but i couldn't :) "Waving The White Flag Goodbye" dont worry about anything i'll find a way to be okay we'll talk every now and then and not know what to say we'll see each other on my winter breaks we'll smile but wonder what each other thinks i think your smiles never meant a thing somehow i knew it would end

2003-11-18T15:55:00.000-05:00

i changed the lyrics around to "between midnight and madnes" (see nov 17) and i wrote music for it. its kinda a deep, heavy, rock song and im thinkin possible astatic song. anyway, heres the new lyrics, if i get around to it...i will record acoustically the music for it. "Between Midnight and Madness" hello telephone ring just one more time let it be her to ease my mind im wondering too much

2003-11-18T11:40:00.000-05:00

hello all. if u want a good story, check out dematt's blog as for me, english class is sooooo boring. luckily its cancelled on thursday. anyway, don't ever watch "the watermelon woman", worst movie ever. (we had to watch it in eng and yay today we discussed it!) instead of paying attention, i wrote this. cya "Headache" there's too much in my mind today i need to clear it all i need to push

2003-11-17T00:58:00.000-05:00

damn this feeling. here you go. "Between Midnight and Madness" hello telephone ring just one more time let it be her to ease my mind im wondering too much of where she's been but wherever i know it was without me hello tv play just one more show the one about heartbreak so i dont feel so alone im wondering too much of what she thinks but whatever i know it is without me some things i just

2003-11-16T19:14:00.000-05:00

i went home this weekend. good time. saw the matrix. it was alright i guess. nothing beats the first one though. wrote this over the weekend.. "Wishing Anterograde" and you break the path to my heart trampling over every part and i needed you more than i did yesterday and i don't know why or what to say it's dark outside and i'm searching for light because somewhere out there i know it's not

2003-11-14T16:49:00.000-05:00

i stumbled upon this unfinished song and decided to finish it. so here you are: "Prose And Cons" the darkness outside swells the room and comes over me another night like this, please someone, save me my mind speaks words of prose and poetry but my mouth says words that fall unimportantly undo me please, i'm already falling apart let me unravel and end this now theres no sound, except for my

2003-11-11T16:27:00.000-05:00

i recorded "lost philosophy" today, if u want a copy, just msg me (havoc2416 - aim) and i will try me best to send it to u. if u dont know what song im talking about, refer to the archives on the side panel and somewhere in there u should find the lyrics. cheers

2003-11-09T12:21:00.000-05:00

tried to fool around with photoshop the other day...i dont know what im doing with that program. but u can see some stuff i made (mostly with angryblue.com's brush set to get me started and more familiar with ps7), and theyre up on my deviantart page

2003-11-08T19:56:00.000-05:00

here's a new one: "Unaddressed" this will never get to you i know a destination never reached, but so what i could keep it all in this will never get through to you, i know the best creation hard to breach, but so what i could keep it all then ive done it so far uncared and unaddressed i'll find a way for you to best hear what i have to say unfair and so oppressed by an unkind heart from you

2003-11-08T02:15:00.000-05:00

workin on some new stuff...i need more time. but keep checkin, i should have some stuff up hopefully soon. i dont know what to say, so goodnight. :\

2003-11-07T00:01:00.000-05:00

sup homes....my schedule is gonna suck next semester!!! i only have two classes right now scheduled and a shitload of classes are already full...it sucks. oh well, here you go friends. "Escape" finally i have somewhere to escape these words to theyve been trapped in me longing for release building up inside and looking for the way out slipping past my tongue i cant stop them now when i get

2003-11-06T00:26:00.000-05:00

owlnet sucks...scheduling classes sucks...temple's whole internet sucks...this sucks...i wrote this while waiting forever to accomplish nothing in an attempt to schedule for spring semester. "Anomaly of an Anomie" underneath the light contrasting with my mind i'd like to know, how are you feeling? because i'd feel it all before i'd feel anything from you. we all have eyes, so just for once,

2003-11-04T17:32:00.000-05:00

this song is sad. so here goes, i worked at subway with mike wagner. he died and i had to work the next day, it sucked bc everyone was sad and/or crying so it wasn't fun. they photocopied a picture of him winning a subway contest and handed one out to everyone. i went out to my car on my break and wrote this song on the back of it. i still keep it in my car. "Fallen Hero" it was bad enough

2003-11-03T20:15:00.000-05:00

picked a random song from the old vault............................i need to start writing more i think, i keep reading the older ones and i think they suck lol, but some arent too bad i guess. how bout u guys start posting some opinions in the forum to help me out here!!!! "Treading" sitting here everyone looks the same. im sure you've felt this way, sometime, before, somewhere, someday. i

2003-10-31T17:18:00.000-05:00

i wrote this today (5:17pm)...it has music and one of these days i'll get around to recording it. don't forget to keep an eye out for astatic's reunion with hopeful guest Neotaerik "Lost Philosophy" i feel like we started off on the wrong foot with you i'm falling, lost my balance when you came around to say hello or was it goodbye i cant remember my memory has got me completely all wrong and

2003-10-30T16:52:00.000-05:00

soo...i dont know if any of u have checked mine or joes profile on aim, but..... ASTATIC IS HAVING A REUNION CONCERT christmas break, details will be revealed later as we have no idea as to when, where, or what we are doing exactly. it should be a good time though. well farewell friends

2003-10-28T21:59:00.000-05:00

i was late for my teacher conference today as i got sidetracked jamming with my roommate who brought his bass down from home. i ran over there and if being late wasn't enough i couldn't breathe. thank you asthma. well.... this is funny: cow wrote this today at 9:48 pm when i shouldve been studying....oh well, school's not important. "Anthem For The Determined" i know you don't care now i

2003-10-28T01:02:00.000-05:00

THIS JUST IN to ease the access to my songs, my good compadre gerald heffner uploaded my mp3s to his site...check them out here: my songs thanks a lot to heffner for helping me out with this little project. p.s. post your thoughts about them in the forum! thanks

2003-10-27T22:52:00.000-05:00

i think im gonna make some music for this one. i kinda like it. - tell me what you think! post in the forum! "The Daily Routine Of The Lonely Man" the rain pours and its another day as all my dreams are washed away slowly down the window pane my dreams are gone as i awake and the sun rises again and i wonder how because i can't seem to do it now im lying here, i can barely see and i wonder

2003-10-27T20:34:00.000-05:00

this one has been recorded. "Sitcom Without A Name" theres no use for me. why am i here? constant misery. my best friend doesnt even know my name. who am i kidding? who am i kidding? everythings downhill again. im picking up speed til i hit the end. its coming soon i can feel it. under my feet it will all give out. i'll fall again.. theres no point for me, just a waste; someones primetime

2003-10-26T17:54:00.000-05:00

"The Boy Trapped In The Well" there's nothing here you're wasting your time i mean well but i don't sound right and i wish i did but where does wishing take you down the well where everyone mistakes you ive been searching for sunlight looking for something but looking in the dark isn't really working and ive been fighting gravity looking for a way out but for so long now ive only looked down

2003-10-26T14:37:00.000-05:00

alright, i want to hear from you people...post some shiznit in the forum or sign the guestbook. ;) here's an oldie of mine "A Reason to Being" i thought i could live without u and i went one day without ur tender lullabies without ur melodies its hard to never hear u when ur all i listen for ur always there to show the way and politely hold the door think of this as just a test and take

2003-10-25T16:10:00.000-04:00

this was the last astatic song written.. "Desolate Breath" throw ur life away see what i care flush ur future down do what u dare i am tired of ur selfish ways dont come cry to me when ur vitality fades just know that it takes more than that to get to me the clock ticks down every wasted second when u breathe what happened to you the girl i knew u disappoint me with the things u do i cant

2003-10-24T11:57:00.000-04:00

i came across this today while searching for something to put up here...its an older one, but i like the chorus. "Stubborn" i think about u sometimes it makes the days pass by harder i can't stay occupied ur always on my mind days have passed but not very fast can i last without u? why can't u listen to me? i need u to hear ur so self-absorbed u should find a mirror now look at urself see

2003-10-23T14:14:00.000-04:00

i took this picture at a lan party and its currently up on heffner's page figured its such a good picture i should throw it up here. this isnt a fake picture, its the real deal g.

2003-10-23T12:16:00.000-04:00

Yo G's i started this bad boy in math class...my class is so easy its great. our midterm was equivalent to one mrs benz quiz AND with a formula sheet...it rules no title either, so if you have some ideas for one, just post it feed my inconsistency be the air i breathe i recognize everyone but they don't know me how long will this go on how long can you stay alive i notice everyone but you're

2003-10-22T23:02:00.000-04:00

by request: "Just Another No One" ur just another person to talk behind my back. im just a bullitten board thats covered in tacks. so fill me up with ur teen dream letters of discontent and stick holes in me until theres nothing left. ur just another person to stride into my life. im just a dry-erase board with nothing to confide. so fill me up with drama queen lies of the love u never had and

2003-10-22T22:45:00.000-04:00

"Fool The World" lay it all out. tell me how you really feel. we're fake enough to fool the world so let's do it together baby. there's nothing like disappearing, so let's go all out and throw it all away. i threw it all away years ago. i'll do it again just for you, if you want me to. i know you don't, but i'll be there anyway. can't you feel me? can't you feel? we're fake enough to rule the

2003-10-22T22:25:00.000-04:00

i had these lyrics in the astatic days and me and joe worked on it, but then we didnt do anything with it...so it was almost an astatic song. "Nebular Dreams" looking around me everyday sitting in this lonely space staring at the stars all night wishing i could take a flight cause everyone's lost in oblivion i sit here waiting just for someone to take me away, i need a change why can't i leave

2003-10-22T18:38:00.000-04:00

yo g's. i had another exam in criminal justice today...it was hard as shit. : nothing interesting has happened lately (like always) but eury did bring a super nes to the dorm and we've been kickin it old skool. pavlick showed me this site: sro what you do is type in someones number, type a msg and then someone at sprint calls that number and reads the msg to the person whose number you entered

2003-10-21T15:31:00.000-04:00

boy howdy it's been awhile. didn't update in about a week because i had nothing to say, had to much work to do, and went home for the weekend...i'm sure you were all devastated. does anyone read this shit anyway? here's a few songs to make up for my laziness how about some metaphors? "Brainstorm" i am caught in a tornado. these high-mile winds capture the essence of ur behavior. i am

2003-10-15T00:10:00.000-04:00

funny: GTA4Real

2003-10-14T17:57:00.000-04:00

nothing fun happened today, it was boring, but my english teacher and math teacher both let us out early today which was cool heres a song. i wrote this yesterday the autumn of 03 feelin like i wanna go. feelin like theres nowhere. feelin like i know ur just pretending to care. it took me so long to realize this was wrong. it took me so long to realize you were wrong. feelin like i had

2003-10-13T20:22:00.000-04:00

great news...I Love the 80s will be returning to vh1 on the 20th (next monday)! its gonna be awesome. more canadian connections... boldly go where no man wants to

2003-10-13T15:31:00.000-04:00

homework=not fun today was boring, i had to interview a teacher for my freshman seminar class...why did i pick the most talkative teacher i have? simple, i'm an idiot. nothing else to say, so song time. its been recorded as well...if u want ;) "My Ghost" i dont care about anything tonight goin to my bed to die only for a few minutes, til some sparks fly in my mind and i dream of you these

2003-10-12T17:42:00.000-04:00

good news, the eagles lost. sorry moore. :) i can't wait to go home for hafey's homecoming. i heard a bunch of people are comin home that weekend and it will be great to see everyone again. if you're not planning on coming home that weekend, you suck and should start planning. i'm really bored and too tired/lazy to think of anything so i'll post a song. this song is a love ballad type deal.

2003-10-10T20:06:00.000-04:00

nothing really to say today either, except i woke up really sick this morning and took some medicine and couldn't stay awake in my first class and didn't bother trying to in my second one, so i slept all day instead. im feeling better now though. tomorrow is the homecoming game followed by the sixers game..should be sexcellent. nothing else to say so i'll post some lyrics..enjoy. this is a

2003-10-10T17:21:00.000-04:00

some people just shouldn't live. pie badger mushroom

2003-10-10T01:03:00.000-04:00

if only i could afford it..

2003-10-09T21:17:00.000-04:00

2003-10-09T20:56:00.000-04:00

nothing interesting happened today, except this: mack daddy mario well, i have nothing to say today, so here's a song...it's kind of weird, but for awhile i was all into and about weird lyrics..i liked the idea of writing things that would make one think about what it meant and also ones that would give different readers/listeners different interpretations. just something to make you think, you

2003-10-09T12:29:00.000-04:00

The Goonies 2 oh we can only hope.

2003-10-08T21:47:00.000-04:00

last night i tried to mess with my computer and well...messed it up. i had to format and reinstall windows, etc...it was a bitch, but luckily everything was backed up. nothing exciting happened today, had two classes, both were boring. :) good news, tomorrow morning my english class is cancelled so i get to sleep in...at least until my math class at 1010. i dont really have anything to say